Wednesday, December 31, 2008

naruto update: super cooool naruto yeah!!!


finally the creator showed his surprising chapter! yey its super cool!naruto's back! im so excited and very happy! our hero's comeback!im so glad!....pain just wait the revenge from him for what u did to konoha...im glad to see sakura's shocking and happy face,im happy for tsunade and the elder frogs seeing the image of jiraiya and the forth hokage in naruto and that he's surpassing both of them....wow cooool and im sure everybody can be safe after the blast although it may makes shorter tsunade'slife's span.

now i can relax a bit while waiting the next chapter coz the naruto is back!NARUTO RETURNS!!!!YAYYYYY :))))))))))) im crazy for you !!! im acting like crazy now! im true narutard!!! a huuge fans of N A R U T O....!! yahoooo!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

naruto no update this week,so dissapointed!


i really anxious of what happen after the last chapter 429. i wait patiently for one week but unfortunately didn't seem that way. i need to wait again until after new year....oh noooo :_(((( why i should wait againnnn??? im so dead curious of what happen with the story.. i dont want to read spoilers and unreasonable comments from the net-ers forum everywhere and some lousy fake vid from youtube abt the new chapter....

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

check out new blog of mine!


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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

dilema (sequel love u sis,seonggok cinta dihatiku,kesan pertama)


beberapa minggu kemudian aku mulai jarang melihatnya.entah
kenapa sepertinya dia mulai menghindariku,dia selalu datang
terlambat saat acara pengajian dan buru2 pulang saat acaranya
selesai.aku jadi bingung dengan sikapnya dan dia tak pernah
lg menunjukkan wajah ramahnya seperti saat pertama kali kita
mengobrol didepan toko kelontong.

aku jadi bertanya2 dalam hati apa yg terjadi dengannya,dan
kenapa dia bersikap seperti itu.akupun menceritakan hal ini
kepada rima.karena aku merasa dekat dengan dia sekedar teman sharing selama ini.raut muka rima makin lama seolah makin kurang bersahabat dan aku sepertinya menyadari ketidaksukaan dia kala aku membicarakan tentang eva.

dilain pihak,ivone,teman kantorku makin gencar mencercaku
dengan meminta kepastian tentang hubungan kami berdua,yg
selama ini aku anggap tak pernah lebih dari sekedar teman
biasa.walaupun dia memang baik padaku dengan menunjukkan
perhatiannya padaku dikantor tempat kami berdua bekerja.

sering kali dia menyediakanku teh hangat dan roti dimejaku pagi2 sekali,dan dia sesumbar pada teman2 kami yg lain kalo dia ada hubungan spesial denganku dan akan ada komitmen masa
depan.aku tak pernah menyangka ivone akan berpikiran sejauh itu,aku tak pernah menjanjikan apa2 padanya.dia mulai lebih agresif bertindak dan aku mulai tak nyaman dengan tingkahnya.saat pada akhirnya dia mengungkapkan perasaannya padaku lewat secarik kertas yg dia tinggalkan dimejaku,aku makin gerah.dia menjelaskan semua yg dia rasakan dihatinya
dan pikirannya dan dia pun menyatakan ketidaksukaannya pada rima,mantan adik kelas dikampusku dulu itu.aku tak ada niatan utk menyakiti hatinya tapi aku pun tak bisa berbohong padanya bahwa aku tak merasakan hal yg sama dgnnya dan aku tak bisa memberikan apa yg ia inginkan walaupun berat itu hrs kulakukan.akupun tahu kalo ivone sebegitu putus asanya saat
aku memberikan jawaban jujurku.aku tak sampai hati tapi tekadku sdh bulat.

sebenarnya akupun tak begitu mencintai rima untuk mau segera memilih menghabiskan hidupku dengannya dalam tali pernikahan,tapi untuk saat ini hanya dia pilihan satu2nya utk
aku mencurahkan segala uneg2 yg aku rasakan karena aku tak mendapatkannya dirumahku sendiri.aku bosan dengan cerita lama dan keluhan orangtuaku yg kurang akur satu sama lain.sumpek sekali saat berada dirumah. suatu hari aku pernah membawa rima kerumah dan bertemu keluargaku,siapa nyana hari itu kakakku dan istrinya juga datang dan ada disana sebelum aku tiba.ibu pun memperkenalkan keduanya pada rima,aku bisa merasakan ketidaksukaan dia,istri kakakku pada rima.entah kenapa sepertinya dia menghindar dan lebih memilih ngobrol dengan adikku yg bungsu. lalu aku teringat beberapa hari lalu aku menerima email darinya dan kakakku yg isinya berusaha mengingatkanku tentang hubunganku dengan rima dan ivone.aku mengerti maksudnya dan akupun membalas email mereka utk meyakinkan mereka kalo aku tahu apa yg aku lakukan.

ahh,melelahkan sekali akhir2 ini.dipikiranku masih berkecamuk banyak hal,tapi aku masih bingung untuk memutuskan apa yg sebaiknya aku lakukan.ditengah kegalauanku anganku menerawang kepadanya,eva.kenapa dengan dia?apa yg membuat dia menghindariku.ada apa dengannya...

suatu hari aku melihatnya,berjalan sendirian saat dia keluar dari masjid.akupun berusaha mengejarnya,dan mendekatinya.dia malah makin mempercepat langkahnya,tapi aku berhasil
menyusulnya dan langsung menghentikan dia untuk sementara.ada yg aneh saat aku menatapnya,sorot matanya memancarkan kesedihan yg tertahan.dia memandangku lalu menundukkan wajahnya kembali dan berlalu,aku tak bisa lagi mencegahnya.aku hanya terdiam(bersambung)

Monday, December 22, 2008

prologue reminder


PROLOGUE

its been a long time since i thought about this,what is the true meaning of us,human,living here in this world?
what is the true purpose?i don't think its only for spending time since we were born until we die.

all i know from the Holy Book i learn,the beginning of this whole universe and 'other world' and all the living creatures is made by Almighty God along long time ago only in six days and nights,have their own purpose of their existences.

as we all have studied in our school,from hundreds years before,the scientist and smart people tried to discover the truth behind all nature and the universe,the planets,the stars,the earth,etc.but up until now there are still many2 secrets behind it that they couldn't find the answer yet.

but i only want to describe the knowledge i got from my journey to the white light about the purpose of this whole universe especially us,as human being.
maybe for some people my journey will appear like telling a fairytale,but just follow me through then think again after this.(the whole story will be explain more in 'signze knight :the journeys' in different blog later on I'll tell here).

the painting again



1.the waterfall i made on high school first grade semester 2.how i miss to paint on canvas again

2.it was meant to copy the photo from the magazine but end up making some additional part in the scenery...
this is from first grade of high school semester1,the first time i paint on canvas

devastating moment of yesterday

yesterday has been a very tiring and rough day as one of my neighbor passed away.he was a very kindhearted person, a lovable father to his four children,and a good friend to everyone.

he passed away on his 44th year old of life,and left his family coz of his grave sickness,he was diagnosed of having an acute liver and tumor.when he started to get medical treatment after knowing his real sickness from the doctors,he was already lose hope of surviving. he felt really down and reminiscing his late 2siblings that died in the same illness.me and my husband visited him twice and we try to encourage him to fight for his precious life for the sake of his family.we really care for him as he also cared for us when my husband having the same grave illness a few months ago.he showed his attention and offered his help many times and support us in anyway that he can.i cant thank him enough for what he's done for us.

but maybe this is all God's amazing plan for him,to rest in peace in there,heaven forever.so that he didnt feel suffer anymore and held the heavy burden on his thought.i wish for him the best pray i could ever think of,i also wih that his wife and children will be strong and tough facing this test from God,and they can fight to survive this cruel world until one day they all be together again in hands of God...

i cant grateful enough to God for giving us a second chance,my husband's recovery made me realize that there are miracles from God as long as we have faith in it and fight,try hard,and pray.Alhamdulillahi robbil alamin..

email nokia scam!(fraud/penipuan)

NOKIA END OF YEAR PROMOTION BOARD UK

Posted: 2008-12-05 by Yogi Bear [send email]


It's SCAM
Complaint Rating:  100 % with 2 votes
Company information:
Nokia E-mail Promotion Board UK
Slough, Berkshire, SL1 4DX United Kingdom
United Kingdom
Phone: +44-703-190-5808
npcashoffice@googlemail.com

Hi to all,
I've received the following scam letter claiming that i've won alot of money ! Pls read thru and beware. If u receive These kind of letter, do not give your info to them ! remember, if it involve so much money, don't you think Nokia will advertise all over the media ? at least they'll get in more sales in order to give out so much money? and also, how can you earn money by giving out so much money without a purpose or return profit ? if Nokia give out so much money, they'll go bankrupt very soon. dont you agree? Good luck to all !

the email contains:-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

NOKIA END OF YEAR PROMOTION BOARD UK.
Head Office : Nokia House, 105 Bath Road,
Slough, Berkshire, SL1 4DX
United Kingdom.

WINNING NOTIFICATION
We wish to inform you that the results of the Nokia E-mail
ID lottery international program by Great Britain held on
the of 9th November 2008.You have been picked as a winner
of a lump sum pay out of £250, 000 Pound Sterlings (Two
Hundred and Fifty Thousand Pound Sterlings) . Your number
is: Ref no:NPUK/74-Npl0109872008.

You are to contact our claims agent for validation:
Mr Mark Cole
Email: npcashoffice@googlemail.com
Telephone: +44-703-190-5808 or +44-703-199-9699

VERIFICATION AND FUNDS RELEASE FORM
1.FULL NAMES:________
2.ADDRESS:_______
3.CITY________
4.STATE________
5.POST CODE_______
6.COUNTRY______
7.SEX:_______
8.AGE:________
9.OCCUPATION:_______
10.TELEPHONE NUMBER:__________
11.REF No:___________

On behalf of the Nokia E-mail Promotion Board UK, we say a
hearty congratulation.

Sincerely,
Mrs. Susan Anderson
Online Coordinator.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
notes:hati2 kalo dapet email kyk gini,ternyata ga cuma org indo aja yg kreatif buat nipu org dengan undian2,tapi org luar negeri pun sama,dasar penipu ada aja dimana2
jgn pernah kasi info apapun kalo dpt email kyk gini ok hati2

Saturday, December 20, 2008

naruto update : naruto hurry back !please!

after i read the newest chapter of naruto shippuuden manga no.429, i was shocked! konoha is destroyed into pieces by pain.only one man can whack one village within seconds.im dissapointed with the creator to make such a sad story.many sacrifices,many tears, how could naruto ever be able to handle this.

i really into naruto story,but this is too much..until sakura has to screamed out loud naruto hurry back!naruto pleasee! just too much after i read last week chapter that made me happy, now is too shocking,i thought pain would just go to myobakuzan and fight with naruto but no, why he had to destroyed the village?why?..................why i have to wait one more week to find out....just too much.

Friday, December 19, 2008

sedikit senyum :)


1.menteri kebersihan cina siapa?
Ke mo Cheng

2.bulet,item,panjang,bau pesing.apa hayo?
tiang listrik dikencingin

3.apa bahasa indonesianya 'susi goes to the cinema?'
susi pergi kebioskop
salah!
abis apa?'
nonton nih yee...'

4.jelas

saya ingin menjelaskan suatu penjelasan yang penting agar anda menjadi lebih jelas lagi daripada penjelasan terdahulu,sebab penjelasan ini jelas-jelas.lebih jelas evidensinya sehingga kejelasan saya dapat anda jelaskan kepada sahabat anda dengan jelas,gunanya utk semua orang,jadi jelas pada penjelasan yang baru saya jelaskan sejelas-jelasnya tadi.semoga anda mulai jelas.terus terang saya juga kurang jelas dengan penjelasan saya sendiri yg baru saya jelaskan pada anda sejelas-jelasnya tadi.apakah anda sudah jelas?dan apakah jelas itu...?

5.kentut
sepasang remaja yg sama2 pemalu sedang duduk berduaan.diam.ngga ada yg buka suara.tiba2 terdengar bunyi 'tuuuuut' memecah kesunyian.si lelaki ngga melepaskan kesempatan baik ini. buru2 dia buka suara.
'kentut jeng?'
'tidak ,kang'
'kalo gitu e-e kali ya?'
'he-emh'jawab si gadis mengiyakan dengan suara lirih sambil tertunduk
setelah itu hening kembali.sepi.

6.perasaan cinta
cinta adalah:
-kadang2 ingin mencekik lehernya
-selalu memikirkannya dimusim kemarau,apalagi musim hujan2an
-lebih naik hidup menderita bersamanya daripada hidup menderita sendirian

7.kamus iseng seputar pelajar
sekolah
-suatu arena tempat kita menggali ilmu
-sasaran buat mereka yg mau cari pacar(bener ngga?)
-panggung terbuka buat mereka yg sok nampang
-gedung yg dalam seminggu kita apeli 6x umumnya(pacar yg paling deket gitu loh)

belajar
-hobi asyik bagi pelajar yg rajin
-kewajiban terpaksa bagi pelajar yg malas
-obyekan bagi mereka yg suka dan ingin dipuji
-alasan yg kuat utk dpt izin kencan kerumah si doi(rajin ya,mlm minggu belajar..)

nyontek
-bakat tersimpan yg dimiliki si malas
-mata pencaharian bagi siswa yg duduk dibelakang
-kenyataan pahit bagi guru(hrs menambah energi pengawasannya)
-suatu keahlian generasi muda yg turun temurun semakin berkembang
-suatu ketrampilan yg cekatan
-keahlian yg tdk dimiliki guru2
-warisan nenek moyang

8.martabak
dalam lipetan,ada kacang.depannya M belakangnya K?
'm-a-r-t-a-b-a-k'

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

10 ways to promote your blog


One great way of getting more traffic and more importantly, making the traffic come back to your site over and over again, is by having your own blog.
The term, ‘Blog‘, is becoming more and more popular, and these days most online companies have a blog.
How can you promote your blog? Once you get your blog known, if you have good enough content, then it will promote itself, thats the amazing thing with blogs.

Heres some quick tips to help promote your blog.

1. Allow your blog readers to subscribe to your own RSS feed. Subscribe with Feedburner. Feedburner allows blog owners and podcasters the ability to manage their RSS feeds and track usage of their subscribers.

2. Always set your blog to ping ‘update services’. What is that? If you use the Wordpress software, here is a great explanation, http://codex.wordpress.org/Update_Services.

3. Take full advantage of Technorati. For a full explanation of what Technorati is and how it works, take a look here, http://www.technorati.com/about/tour.html.

4. Use the power of social netwroking sites, such as digg.com, reddit.com and del.icio.us . If you write a great article, submit it to these sites, if they get picked up by them, you will see a massive increase in traffic to your blog.

5. When writing a post, always make sure you link to as many related sites and blogs. Many blogs have a ‘trackback’ feature enabled which can see what other blogs, like yours, are sending visitors to their blogs. They then usually link back to your blog automatically for free.

6. Get your blogs web address in as many places as possible. Use forums, and put your blogs address in your signature.

7. Submit your blog to as many blog directories as possible, such as blogcatalog.com

8. Link to your blog from your websites homepage, and also in the footer of every other page on your website.

9. Get tips from 2 pro bloggers, such as problogger.net and shoemoney.com

10. Finally, and most important, write great content that is relevant to your website, and you will then find your readers will do your promoting for you.

my old painting


i make this when i was in second grade of senior high school..

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

manga with God's power illustration



why i write that ?because in both bleach and deathnote, a human described have the ability to determine the faith of the society/other people.

in deathnote, the villain has the power to kill other just by writing their name in the shinigami/death God's book. Although the real reason is that shinigami just want to play with human to make him less bored.the story is good and the conclusion is also nice, coz it gives us the good message that human will never be able to act like God and handle God's power.and human always have weaknesses inside,the good side and bad side.

and in bleach,the main character can easily come and go to the other world,the world of God and dead people.and has the ability beyond normal human being just because his dad is a former shinigami(again?).at first the story is quite interesting,the story about relationship between shinigami and ordinary human.but it goes too much as the story involving too much shinigami world called soul society and hueco mundo's community as the rival.and the creatures demon just disgusting. the rival is described as a very powerfull opponent compare to the shinigamis, and is just making me bored lately..

there are more interesting mangas like kenshin, inuyasha,ranma1/2,tsubasa reservoir chronicles,that have nothing to do with the community for dead people and deathGod.
but its just up to the person's taste anyway...

Monday, December 15, 2008

where i want to be..


actually lately has been a very hard times for me to go through.everything is mixed in my mind, and all i need is only a clear view to decide what to do next,and i feel all alone in this.

i don't really get the refreshing air i was hoping to get from somebody that i expect before.although i'm ok but my heart felt cold as if its raining heavily inside.

i want to be where the picture once taken,the beach,listening to the sound of the wave,and i feel peace and warm.. feel and watch the amazing scenery God's created in this world and witnessed by my eyes and save it in my mind. but i don't know when i would be able to feel such feeling again.this year has been a very complicated year in my life,too many unexpected things that happened to me.and its driving me crazy up until now.i don't know why but something 's lost in my chest,and what left is the great emptiness.

i feel deeply bored,blank and just tired.tired of all i've been through.i want to make everything better in the future not to stay like this for longer time,but somehow to make a step toward to what i plan before is a huge and heavy step.my foot just doesn't want to go yet from the place i am now.to move and change is a very difficult task for my brain to comprehen.Please God, help me get through this once more,i only put high expectation and prays to You.only You,no other.help me to survive another chapter in my life....amiin

movie/special part in j-dorama


I'm addicted to japan dramas more and more,especially if they release the special part from the series,called special movie.coz after i watched more than 4 special movie from different dramas,let's say hana yori dango final,proposal daisasuken special and attention please special hawaii, nodame cantabile special paris,galileo special zero,etc i feel exciting and happy to see the ending of the series,or the missing part that i want to see in the series.

in the movie or call it special,they provide us with the scenes from the drama that explain every reason or just to complete the storyline from the drama.
im happy to see the end of makino and domyouji in HYD,Ken and rei in Propdais,Hanakimi couple,and all other..a happy end and best result for the drama.so i cant wait for the next special from some dramas.i look for Trick 2 the movie,attention please sydney special,Yoginsha x(galileo special movie2),many others(especially outside drama is naruto shippuuden the movie2).

but the same thing didnt happen in Korean drama.i like drama such as Goong,full house,sassy girl chunhyang,iljimae.but its really dissapointing if they make the sequel from the dramas, especially if it weren't the same casts,the great storyline and chemistry. for example goong, they make goong2(prince's hour),a total failure.and i heard they will make full house2,and return of iljimae but not with the original casts,im afraid it will be the same as goong2.for now abt korean drama i only wait for boys before flower (another version for Hanayori dango manga after Meteor garden and Hana yori dango/boys over flowers) although i dont like the girl for the main character,i watched her in pure love 19.its not really great.i just hope she can act better in this drama.

so,i love japan drama more and more,compare to korean or taiwanese drama.its just my taste..
the list special movie from drama i know:
1.Hana yori dango final/special after HYD 1&2
2.Nodame Cantabile Paris Special
3.Attention Please Special hawaii and Sydney
4.Galileo special zero and Yoginsha X
5.GTO special
6.Gokusen Special after Gokusen 1 and 2
7.Ace wo nerae special
8.Trick the movie
9.Hanakimi special 7.5
10.Proposal Daisasuken Special
and many more..

Sunday, December 14, 2008

naruto manga updates! naruto vs pain



its big chance that in the next chapter will be about Pain will make his way to the frog village where naruto trains himself with Jiraiya's teacher. but again i think tsunade will not make him easy in doing that...

see,what i think abt konohamaru is correct,he'll survive anyway.but i feel exciting if pain really meet naruto, i just hope tsunade wont sacrifice herself to death to protect him..but she will anyway..this is only if what the creator think the same as me.
i cant wait to see and read the next chapter,the anime lately filled with too much spoiler,very slow if based on the manga.im a little bored to continue sometimes.hopefully the next chapter will bring more surprise as the chapter before....

i just curious since lately the chapters in naruto manga is getting more interesting as the conflicts become wider and more difficult.i enjoy more rather than the fight between sasuke with itachi or killerbee the eight-tails.i just hate his character.he's just a' grey' character,not white or black and we can not be sure is he in the good side or bad side. for me naruto is the best personality.never give up and keep on fighting and trying his best.ganbare!

Friday, December 12, 2008

aku,dia


Hari ini,saat turun hujan,aku terpaku duduk didepan jendela memandangi air yang membasahi bumi,pikiranku menerawang
membayangkan apa yang telah terjadi didalam hidupku....

sendiri dengan kesepian memeluk diri,
saat awan gelap menutup sosok dia disana
seperti tembok pemisah harapan akan keingin tahuan
kapan dan dimana aku akan memiliki
impian atas jati dirinya dimasa depan
---
saat tangan ingin meraih rembulan dimalam ini,
seluruh tubuhku terjerat oleh lilitan akar serabut
yg timbul dari tanah dingin dan basah
begitu sulit melawan cermin didepanku ini
begitu merah wajah ini
didepan bara yang menjilat dan membakar
semua keberanian diotakku
---
malam ini hujan kenangan mengguyur deras logikaku
aku terseret kealam lampau,
diam,
terhanyut dalam gelombang angan dan harapan sirna
bagai buih yg menciumi pantai
dimana dia? mereka?
dimana aku?
mengapa kabut masa kini menggelayuti dan membayangi aku dan kenanganku
terikat erat
tak bisa lepas
aku disini
diam
---
aku dan dia
orang sempurna
seperti aku dan bayangan
ada
tampak
dan senantiasa setia
tapi tak pernah bisa kurengkuh
hanya hitam
---

the dark moon



lately i can hardly erase his shadow out of my very eyes.the more i try to forget him,the more i remember him clearly in my mind.i don't know what to say anymore,this feeling is too deep and its getting deeper day by day.the day he went somewhere without returning again has left me some mysteries about the real him.
all of this time he once said something to me.
the night hugs my shadows so tight, im cold inside
the moon loses the charm and being covered by the cloudy dark skies
tears has no meaning in this black heart
the angels scared,the devils laughed
only one light can save me from despair
love me and i shall be free................
(jan2009-the view of dawn in front of my window)

just a little....


lately i cant hardly erase his shadow out of my very eyes.
the more i try to forget him,the stronger i feel of missing him inside me..
even now,he's not by my side,the memory of him remains here.
its true that he's far away from me,
but he already takes something precious that i have,
he has my heart
part of me stays with him, and i feel lost and empty

he's never promise me anything,
he's never say anything to make me do this,
but i'm out of myself

now my mind is confuse...

day by day the battle in my heart and mind are getting harder and harder
he stays in my mind,in my heart
he rules my fantasy,my dreams
my deepest wishes..

but myself is prisoned by the rules,the tradition and my own logic
i dont know for how long until i feel peace ........

23.3.00

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

kesan pertama (sequel love u sis,seonggok cinta dihatiku)


hari minggu ini begitu cerah,cenderung mulai panas saat matahari semakin meninggi.banyak org berkerumun dan berkumpul di halaman mesjid ini.setelah aku dan yang lainnya selesai mengaji,aku bergegas untuk pulang,sedang yg lainnya ada yg menyempatkan diri mengobrol dan bercengkrama dgn teman mereka dan ada juga yg melakukan pedekate pada cewek2 utk sekedar mencari tahu lebih banyak ttg mereka.

tiba2 handphoneku berbunyi,saat aku angkat,ternyata rima.dia adik kelasku dikampus dulu.dia sangat sering menghubungiku, cenderung agresif sekali.aku menikmati berdiskusi dengannya tapi aku tak pernah menganggap dia lebih dari teman,aku hanya menganggap dia pengisi kekosongan yg aku tidak dapatkan dikeluargaku yg sangat individualistis.dulu aku punya tempat share,kakakku.tapi dia sekarang hidup terpisah denganku dan bersamanya menjalani hidup berdua.ah,aku tak mau mengingat hal itu karena terasa menyakitkan.saat rima terus berbicara ditelingaku lewat handphone,pandanganku terpaku pada satu sosok.dia!

sosok yg tak sepenuhnya bisa kuhapus sejak pertama kali kulihat dia diacara ta'aruf 3bulan lalu.dia terlihat berjalan beriringan dengan teman2nya saat beberapa cowok mulai datang mendekatinya.konsentrasiku pecah dan kubilang pada rima ditelepon kalo aku ada urusan,lalu kututup handphoneku meskipun rima sepertinya terkejut aku tak peduli lagi.aku kemudian mendekati rohman temanku.aku bertanya pada dia,apa dia tahu cewek itu,yg sedang sibuk terlibat percakapan dgn org2 sekitarnya.

rohman mengikuti arah telunjukku kemudian dia memandangnya beberapa saat,dan tersenyum kearahku.dia berkata, oh itu yg kamu maksud,cewek itu namanya eva,kuliah di unpad,sekarang dia kerja part time di toko kelontong depan sana kalo dia sedang ada waktu senggang.keluarganya sih biasa aja ngga kaya.tapi dia pinter banget,kalo ngobrol ama dia sih asik, tapi kalo belum begitu kenal dia ga akan terlalu ramah karena orgnya sedikit pendiam.kata2 rohman terngiang2 dikepalaku saat pandanganku belum beralih dari sosoknya,aku tersadar saat dia mulai melangkahkan kembali kakinya untuk pergi pulang.

asalnya rasa angkuh itu mulai merayap lagi dibenakku,tapi aku mulai bisa mengendalikannya dan tak mau lagi kehilangan kesempatan,aku berpamitan pada rohman untuk pulang duluan, aku mau mengikuti dia dari kejauhan.sampai kemudian berhenti saat dia pun berpisah dengan teman2nya lalu masuk kesebuah toserba.diam2 kuamati dia hanya melihat2 barang2 yg ada disitu dan sesekali mengambil utk memeriksa hrg brg tersebut kemudian ditaruhnya kembali.aku hrs berhati2 dan sedikit berpura2 bahwa aku juga mau membeli sesuatu dan berada sedikit mendekati posisinya.dia sepertinya mulai menyadari keberadaanku tapi tak seperti cewek2 yg kukenal,dia hanya diam saja dan sibuk sendiri.akhirnya aku yg berinisiatif mengambil langkah dengan memulai kata2 pembuka percakapan padanya.

aku berkata padanya hal2 biasa utk berbasa basi,bahwa sepertinya kita pernah ketemu,oh diacara ta'aruf itu, kamu berasal dari dkm mana dan bla bla bla.dia hanya menjawab seperlunya seperti dulu.tapi dia memandangku dengan sorotan yg begitu tajam hingga aku sedikit jengah dibuatnya.lalu tiba2 dia berkata,dia tahu aku mengikutinya sedari tadi dan melihatnya sejak dari halaman masjid.dia bertanya kenapa aku lakukan itu dan apa maksudnya.aku terkejut dengan apa yg diutarakannya hingga untuk beberapa saat aku tak mampu berucap sepatah katapun.karena kadung sudah ketahuan,akhirnya aku menjelaskan bahwa aku hanya ingin berteman apalagi setelah mengetahui kita ternyata satu grup dkm masjid. yah sudah sepantasnyalah saling mengenal satu sama lain,tidak ada maksud lain.dia hanya diam dan kemudian sedikit menundukkan kepala lalu berkata baiklah,kalo memang niat berteman dia tak keberatan asal tdk berlebihan.hanya seperti itulah percakapan pertama kami, aku tak melihatnya untuk beberapa waktu sampai suatu saat ketika aku menuju kemasjid karena ada pertemuan panitia untuk acara bazaar amal,aku melihat dia sedang menyapu dihalaman sebuah toko kelontong sendirian.

seperti terhipnotis,aku tanpa sadar memutar arah motorku dan berhenti tepat didepannya.dia agak kaget,lalu sedikit senyum tersungging diwajahnya.aku merasa lega melihatnya.kamipun berbincang2 masalah2 sepele lalu meningkat kearah hobi,sekolah masing2.dia sangat berbeda waktu itu,kami mengobrol layaknya teman biasa yg sudah lebih lama saling kenal.tak terlihat kekakuan sebelumnya,dan tidak terlalu canggung lg.meski tidak terlalu lama aku menikmatinya dan berharap akan ada lagi saat2 seperti itu diwaktu2 mendatang.(bersambung)

the photos i take around me





these photos were taken from the view outside my house. i liked the scenery so i decided to frame it in the camera.

my lover's illustration


i make this while watching closely to his photos.then i want to make his sketch in my book.here it is.....

i care for him in a very unimaginable way.im glad i found someone like him in my life..

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

naruto updates: Pain vs tsunade!



after i read the latest chapter of naruto manga,
i was shock! the title 'reunion' on the first chapter. i thought it would be naruto comeback to the village and he help konohamaru,but its all about the meeting between tsunade and pain in the last page of this chapter.

i have a bad feeling about this,the creator of naruto in the end will make all of the three legendary sannin passed away, as the two(jiraiya and orochimaru are already gone) . coz there's no chance tsunade will win againts pain,although chouji already told her the secret of pain. to eliminate pain,it wont be so easy for her.it will be different maybe if naruto come back or sasuke shows up and help.anyway it depend on the author anyway..

its just so sad if naruto lost all the people he cares.and its just too much for him to handle.maybe the author will make a surprise moments in the story or not...i cant wait next friday....

but for sure i bet konohamaru will not die,since he's one the 'king' of konoha.(king=the unborn children and the children that will be the next generation of the leaf/konoha shinobi/ninja,as asuma said to shikamaru before). and naruto will learn the sage technique faster coz the type of learning is the same as rasengan combined with wind techniques he knew before..
and come back to the village to help save the day
just wait and see...

Saturday, December 6, 2008

seonggok cinta dihatiku(part2) (sequel love u sis....)



aku mulai gerah dengan situasi disekitarku.dua org rekanku yg
mulai menginterogasi dengan diselingi kata2 sedikit gombal
dan membangga2kan diri mrk pada cewek2 yg ada digrup
kami,terus terang membuatku muak.asalnya tidak kuperhatikan
sama sekali mrk,tapi lalu setelah kami hampir sampai ditujuan
akhir perjalanan,saya melihat dia.

dia sesekali melempar pandangan padaku dengan raut muka yg
sama sekali tidak ada roman senyum dan ramah,begitu serius.
matanya tajam seolah menusukku dengan sorotan seperti itu,
dan aku dibuat tidak nyaman karenanya.lalu aku ingat bahwa
sepanjang perjalanan tadi,dia adalah org yg paling sering
ditanyai oleh rekan2ku.aku kurang peduli dengan pembicaraan
mereka,aku bahkan tidak begitu memperhatikan dengan
pertanyaan teman2 ceweknya,karena aku sudah memasang cerita dipikiranku sendiri bahwa semua ini terasa sangatlah membosankan.

tapi saat kami berpisah untuk berpindah grup,aku baru menyadari kalo dia memperhatikanku selintas lalu. aku berpikir ah ini mungkin cuma kebetulan belaka dan mungkin dia tidak sebegitu besar ingin berbicara denganku,karena dia tidak pernah melontarkan satu katapun.saat rekan2ku yg tadi bertanya padanya,dia hanya menjawab seperlunya.tanpa aku sadari aku terus berpikir segala kemungkinan yg terjadi saat itu,saat kami masih satu grup,sepertinya wajah itu menempel kuat dipandanganku,aku tak bisa melupakan ekspresinya itu dan segudang pertanyaan yg ada dibalik tatapannya.

aku mulai benar2 tidak mempedulikan sekitarku,karena rasa penasaran yg menyelinap dihatiku mulai membuncah,mengetuk2 otakku untuk bertanya padanya.aku bahkan tak memperhatikan
pertanyaan2 cewek2 baru yg tergabung digrup kami.

setelah semua perjalanan selesai,dan beberapa raut muka kecewa terpancar dari org2 yg telah kehilangan harapan untuk dapat sosok yg tepat bagi mereka di acara ta'aruf kali ini.tapi bagiku ini lain, skenario yg menjenuhkan berubah lebih berwarna,ibarat hari yg mendung berubah cerah kembali,karena mata itu,ekspresi wajah itu mengingatkanku pada seseorang.
dia,yg tidak seharusnya kukasihi.

lambat laun image yg ada tentang dia mulai pudar dan tergantikan oleh tatapan misterius itu. aku mau tahu dia lebih jauh lagi,dan sekarang sebelum semua terlambat dan acara hari ini berakhir,setidaknya aku harus bisa dapat sedikit info tentang dia,dari dia sendiri sipemilik tatapan yg telah meretakkan sedikit dinding keegoisan hatiku.

segmen terakhir dari ta'aruf kini dimulai,setelah kami semua beristirahat dan sholat dzuhur kemudian makan siang,para pengatur acara mulai menjelaskan aturan terakhir dari segmen
itu.setiap org diberi sebuah formulir isian dimana disitu tertera tulisan mengenai siapakah yg ingin kami kenal lebih jauh secara personal dan alasannya.aku seolah mendapat jalan untuk menjawab kepenasaranku,tanpa ragu2 aku isi meskipun itu tidak berarti aku ingin menikah secepat itu,aku masih butuh waktu.singkat cerita semua org selesai mengembalikan formulir
mereka termasuk aku kepada panitia yg bertugas,dan aku berharap aku akan mendapat kesempatan diwaktu yg mulai sempit ini.tapi ternyata semua tak seperti yg aku harapkan,ternyata ada beberapa org lain yg jg sama sepertiku,menyimpan berjuta
pertanyaan dibenak mereka tentang dia,dan mereka beruntung bisa bertanya langsung padanya ditemani seorang panitia (karena kita diharamkan cuma berdua,yg bukan mahromnya).aku
tidak dapat kesempatan itu karena waktu acara yg habis dan terpaksa harus diakhiri.aku sangat kecewa saat itu,tapi itu tak membuat aku kehilangan akal.saat semua bubar kucari sosok
nya diantara kerumunan wanita yg berhamburan keluar dari mesjid tempat acara kami tadi.

aku melihatnya! dia begitu berbeda saat berada bersama beberapa teman wanitanya.dia lebih ceria dan sesekali melemparkan senyum.dia terlihat lebih manis.tapi saat aku ingin mencari jawaban akan kepenasaranku,rasa angkuh itu muncul lagi dan mencegahku untuk melangkahkan kakiku mendekatinya.aku tidak mau terlalu menunjukkan ketertarikanku
dan membuat dia ge-er.aku putuskan hanya memperhatikan sosoknya yg makin menjauh dan pergi.aku berharap mungkin suatu saat akan ada kesempatan lain aku bertemu dengannya
lagi.semoga...

Thursday, December 4, 2008

heart


today..26.10.00

the world keep on spinning and spinning
nor you and i understand clearly
the faith we will face ahead

my mind drowned into the sea of troubles
my heart wanna break free from the jail of rules
my soul in the middle of the rage,the fury,the anger
the battle of my bad side,
my health,my logic,senses,told me
to look once again,who am i
what meaning do i search,
where have i been all along,
when i realize,the reality
is not as sweet as my dream..

its more painful,it hurts
to see not everything turned out the way
i want it to be
just like you,
the one i care for so long
far beyond my reach
and i only capture my empty wishes

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can not touch
can not hold
can not be together

can not love
can not kiss
can not have each other

must be strong and we must let go
can not say what our heart must know

how can i not love you
what do i tell my heart
when do i not want you
here in my heart

i just want to walk away
from all of the memmories
how can i not miss you
when you were gone

can not dream
can not share
sweet and tender moments
can not feel
how we feel
must pretends its over

must be brave
and we must go on
must not say
what we've known all along

(song lyric ' how can I not love you' by Joey Enriques)

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if the sky open up for me
and the mountain is disappear
is the sea runs dry, turn to dust
and the sun refuse to rise

i would still find my way
by the life i see in your eyes
the world i know
fade away ..but you'll stay
in the love that we have made
before time....

(song lyric 'a love before time' by coco lee)
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Monday, December 1, 2008

reality show cinta monyet sctv yg ketauan pake seleb

(foto dari situs kapanlagi.com)
beberapa hari yg lalu saya sedang kebetulan nonton lemon tea episode cinta monyet dimana si client nyari pacarnya yg tiba2 ngilang(biasa,semua jg ngilang dulu..).cuman koq liat mukanya familier bgt yah,pas dia bilang namanya Terta.oh saya baru ngeh,itu kan si Tetra mayasari yg suka wara wiri di sinetron atau apalah pokoknya saya beberapa kali liat dia ada diteve.so so cengeng bete en sedih nyariin cinta monyetnya dia.pleeasee deh!!singkat cerita ketemu lah dia ama cowoknya dan bla2 dramatisasi ala sinetron pun dimulai.bertele2 dan boring bgt.

kemudian saya jadi inget beberapa hari sebelumnya saya baca ditabloid ada artikel yg membahas berjamurnya acara reality show diteve.dan ada yg sebetulnya cuma rekayasa saja,bukan benar2 kasus seseorang yg benar2 dibantu permasalahannya,sekedar sinetron dengan skenario seadanya dan pemain2 amatir yg rela dibayar 300rb utk berakting disitu,meskipun pas2an.

awalnya saya juga heran,emang ada gitu org yg mau hidupnya(aib/kejelekannya)diekspos diteve? dan membiarkan wajah mereka di close up begitu rupa dan kemudian dikonsumsi banyak org?sejatinya mereka pasti tinggal disuatu tempat,ada banyak tetangga dan keluarga disekitar mereka,karena mereka bukan tokoh fiksi yg tidak nyata ada di dunia ini kan?

tapi pleease sekali lagi kalo sampe pake seleb(baca:yg pernah nongol diteve) disitu apa ga berlebihan?pa sudah susah cari talent utk dipasang direality show?sctv apa kurang peka dan tidak tahu hal ini?sayang banget cacatnya terlalu menonjol di episode itu.kalo pun itu beneran kisah dia apa ngga malu ikutan acara seperti itu?secara dia udh pernah masuk teve gitu loh.

utk jika aku menjadi nya trans juga,kalo talent yg dipilih kalo bisa lebih selektif lagi terutama talent cowok,karena pernah ada talent yg berprofesi sebagai penyiar radio,bikin illfeel liat beliau disitu.cowok tapi koq manja banget,masa kayu berat ga nyampe 10kg ngeluh,kena luka pas nuai sawit ngeluh,ga segitunya kalee.ga ada pantes2nya cowok ngeluh,atau mungkin beliau cuma anak mami saja.saya malah salut ama talent seorang mahasiswa yg mau makan serangga yg digoreng dan seperti have fun saat bantu2 dan bikin lampu dr kaleng susu.

so jgn terlalu percaya ama reality show,kecuali hari yg aneh kali, itu ok bgt meskipun konsepnya kurang lebih seperti Punk'd nya MTV.dan RCTI ga malu2 ngikut dengan acara Kacau-nya.

so anxious to know what happen next in naruto manga!


im really anxious to know what will the mangaka make in the next chapter of naruto.since i read the latest chapter,no.426, the story really makes me curious til i cant wait to read the next chapter next week.

in the latest chapters, naruto now lost both oh his dearly teacher, Jiraiya and recently Kakashi hatake. and unfortunately they both lost and then killed by the same enemy named pein.

i wonder what he will do,of course to revenge for both of them but when and how he can defeat this enemy become my source of curiosity and will somebody save konohamaru from one Pein? since nobody yet can give any signal that they can defeat him.

after all,we know that the one who behind this akatsuki is uchiha madara,who will be the saviour this time?coz i think naruto cant fight alone,or will there be more sacrifice?is tsunade going to die?is all the teachers will be killed coz they didnt tell where naruto is?or when naruto will be returning to the village?or will he be too late ?will sasuke also attack the village like he said he will or instead he will turn againts Pein and help konoha?will the sand village and the eight-tails killerbee help them too?im just so eager to know...,but all the answers lays in the hands of the creator and i hope nothing that i predicted happen in the story.i hope the story will end just fine and satisfying.

wait for the next friday for the next chapter :-(