Thursday, April 30, 2009

cherry juice with strawberry on the shortcake


today i read again one more shoujo manga named'cherry juice'.after i read it until the end, its quite nice story and sweet,although it reminds me of strawberry on the shortcake drama alot.anyway it's good and i like the story.you can read it online in onemanga.com,anytime.

synopsis:When an awkward love-triangle forms between step-siblings Otome and Minami and their best friend, Amane, this sweet romantic comedy will leave you wanting more...and more...and more!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

swine flu/flu babi yg menakutkan..




akhir2 ini tambah banyak aja jenis penyakit yg bermunculan disekitar kita(dibelahan bumi ini) yg berasal dari berbagai macam faktor entah itu dari binatang,makanan,lingkungan,gaya hidup,dll. dan semakin kesini,semakin parah dan berbahaya,hingga kadang teramat sulit utk mencari pengobatan dan pencegahannya.sebut saja kanker dgn segala jenisnya, hiv-aids yg sampai sekarang blm ketemu obatnya,jenis baru DBD,dan yg paling mutakhir berbagai jenis flu baru yg mengancam kesehatan kita.

sepertinya kiamat memang benar2 sudah dekat,dgn semua ciri2 yg jelas sudah tampak dan juga bencana alam maupun musibah2 yg tak ada henti2nya,termasuk penyakit2 ini.seolah2 kotak pandora sudah terlanjur terbuka dgn sendirinya dan kita hanya bisa menunggu dan berusaha sebisa mungkin menyelamatkan diri.tapi bila menilik agama(islam khususnya) selalu ada faedah dan hikmah  dari semua peraturan dan larangan yg tertera didalamnya untuk kita sebagai penganutnya dapat mengerti dan memahami dgn hati yg lebih ikhlas.

masalah kanker dan hiv-aids sdh sangat umum kita ketahui.sekarang khusus utk berbagai flu baru,pertama,flu burung,dari sejak kemunculannya,penyakit ini bukanlah berasal dari negara kita,walau pada akhirnya negara kita menjadi salah satu negara dgn dampak yg paling parah saat mengalaminya.dgn cara hidup sehat dan bersih kita sudah bisa lebih mengurangi resiko terkena penyakit ini.pun dgn flu singapura yg lebih cenderung menjangkiti penderita yg sistem imun nya blm kuat dan masih bisa diobati.tapi utk flu babi/swine flu, saya hanya bisa menggelengkan kepala.sedari dulu diagama yg sy anut,babi adalah hewan yg diharamkan utk dikonsumsi dlm bentuk apapun. semua yg berhubungan dgn hewan babi adalah 100%larangan utk muslim.bila ditelaah dari segi kesehatan pun,tak ada faedah yg signifikan,karena mengandung cacing pita,lemak jahat pemicu kolesterol dan yg terakhir ini flu babi yg telah menyebabkan lebih dari 150korban meninggal dimeksiko,negara asal munculnya dan telah menyebar ke selandia baru.flu ini punya akibat yg lebih parah dan menakutkan melebihi flu burung,sampai2 pemerintah mengeluarkan budget tak kurang dari 38miliar utk mengantisipasi penyakit ini termasuk memasang pemindai panas di sejumlah bandara internasional diindonesia. 

saya merasa beruntung karena dgn sendirinya sudah mengurangi resiko terkena penyakit seperti ini,dan benar2 bersyukur memahami bahwa larangan agama itu ada manfaatnya. seperti halnya HIV-aids yg menjangkiti kebanyakan pelaku free-sex,penyuka sesama jenis,dan pengguna narkoba,flu babi menjangkiti org yg telah memakan binatang yg telah dilarang karena banyak mudlaratnya biar kata enak sekali  makanan olahannya.

klik disini utk info lengkap ttg swine flu

semua telah ada aturannya,konsekuensinya,apabila dilanggar,bukan hanya akibat didunia saja yg akan diterima,tetapi hendaknya berpikir apa yg akan kita dapati setelahnya diakhirat nanti.

ini tak lebih dari sebuah perenungan buat saya,dgn fenomena ini,setidaknya harus bisa menebalkan keyakinan padaNya yg berkuasa diatas segalanya.   

Monday, April 27, 2009

abt my other blog,meenoestigma


i put all of my history about how i finally end up working in fashion field,although that was not my true intention from the beginning ,or lets say it wasn't my dream at all,about clothing things.but anyway i've worked for over than 10 years now.so,it became one part of my life.but then again i 've never gave up hope to reach for other dream,to do my real hobby,like making comic or stories.maybe someday if God gives me permission, i would make it into one book,since some of my friends encourage me to do so,but not now i suppose,im still lack in confidence anyway.please visit if u r interested to know what i've been going through all these years and feel free to comment or give suggestions or even critics.i'll be glad to receive all the sign of attentions from all of my friends out there.cheers!! 

meenoes clothing.co = http://meenoestigma.blogspot.com/

cinta bumi dan langit (part 17)

And here i am,... setelah siang yg melelahkan dan lampu2 blitz kamera yg menyilaukan pandanganku,aku sekarang berada dihotel marrione sesuai undangan yg dibuka sesaat sekitar jam 7.30 malam barusan.sepanjang acara,pikiranku tak henti2nya berpikir tentang satrio.apa yg hrs kulakukan?aku blm bisa kemana2 saat ini...huh kuhela nafas panjang tp tetap saja tidak menghilangkan kecemasanku.setiap setengah jam berlalu aku makin tak bisa berpikir dan sangat tidak menikmati acara ini,beberapa kali aku berusaha menyelinap utk pergi tp saat itu pula aku selalu terhalangi,entah itu oleh rekan selebku,atau salah satu petinggi rumah produksi,juga bos iklan yg memakai jasaku, sampai akhirnya pada percobaan terakhir,manajerku lah yg memergokiku utk mencegahku meninggalkan acara itu.

Dia bertanya padaku,kenapa sepertinya malam ini aku bertingkah sangat aneh,dan seperti sedang mengkuatirkan sesuatu.awalnya ada sedikit keraguan utk bercerita padanya,tp setelah sejenak ku pikir,aku bisa mempercayainya,toh selama ini hanya dia yg tahu cerita antara aku dan satrio.

Saat aku mengatakan padanya tentang janji bertemu dgn satrio dikafe,dia sangat terkejut dan terlihat sedikit kesal lalu bertanya knp tidak memberitahunya.kalau saja aku bercerita lebih awal, dia akan mencari cara utk membantuku.akupun tersenyum dan terharu dgn dukungannya.diapun kemudian buru2 memegang pundakku dan mendorongku perlahan memintaku segera bergegas pergi,dan membiarkan sisanya menjadi tanggung jawab dia utk menyelesaikannya.akupun berlari2 kecil keluar dr hotel itu dan mengangkat tangan menyetop taksi yg sedang melintas.sepanjang perjalanan mataku menatap keluar jendela taksi ini dan memandang sedikit menerawang,membayangkan pertemuanku dgnnya...walau aku ragu apa mungkin dia msh disana..saat kulihat jam tangan yg melingkar dipergelanganku, ya ampun sudah jam 10.30..aku sudah terlambat..
(bersambung)

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the saga of amty and hima :chapter 3


once upon a time,in a country named donesy lived two big families.one of them called amty family and the other is hima family.these two families didn't get along well, or lets say deep inside their heart they have grudge to each other.
there were too many scars in the history between the two,that would never made them have a good relationship for so long,maybe end up forever.

from missunderstanding,selfishness,arrogancy,revenge,or simply to call it all as water and oil, will always be separated somehow.for each member of the family accidentically connected with their rival family was just purely destined by God,but thats the way it was,the connection ended in a hurtful way for one side,whether amty or hima.


chapter 3: unwanted wedding,humiliation and a fairy tale happy ending

1.unwanted wedding

the second daughter of amty family named leda,was a cute and pretty little girl.she was very friendly and smiles a lot.everybody adored her,and she would easily make friends everywhere she went.
 as the time gone by,she turned into a charming and attractive girl. she had many friends during her junior and senior high school times.many boys fell for her and often visited her at home,but she just wanted to be their friends.by the time of her 15th birthday, someone seemed to always watched her and kept an eye for her. a 28 year-old dark skinned-curly haired with acnes-all over the cheeks-rich college guy named dino grew a wish in his heart upon her,that someday he would be the one to pick this lovely flower for his own little dreamland's garden of the future.
  he told his wish to lisa hima,oswa hima's nephew's wife,yudo hima.lisa hima was a talkative,friendly and nice to everyone type of person,but in the inside we could never guess what was her real intention,whether for pure sincerity or hidden purposes.
  so,lisa and yudo tried to make an approach to rewaty and massa of the amty family,leda's parent.they did it to make the bridge that would lead the way for dino to make leda as his mate.
 yudo and lisa convinced leda's parent that the thing in the past is the past,they left it behind already so they just wanted to have a good relationship and friendship with them.
rewaty and massa believed them and when they told them about dino's wish,both of leda's parent supported them with this idea.
a shocking expression with wide open eyes and mouth showed from leda's face when her parent told her to accept dino by making a true commitment between her and him by engagement or it was more like a spiritual wedding bond by religion.(2bcontinued)
 

(the saga...chapter 1-2 in 'pouring my mind')

Sunday, April 26, 2009

hits of the 90's


recently i just get one collection of song called the hits of 90's,250 most popular songs from 1990-1999.i was having some of my best moments during these years,and some of the songs really touched my heart that time and i still remember it until now.nirvana'smell like teen spirit',goo goo dolls'irish', des'ree,spin doctors,ace of base,michael jackson,the cranberries,love their songs alot!

i find it in one torrent site and the quality is very good.^-^ 

Friday, April 24, 2009

naruto update:manga 445,anime eps.106



manga chapter 445:(confirmed spoiler from naruto-spoiler)Nagato stands in front of his parents' grave, he has turned to begging
On his way, he picks up a dog named Chibi
No-one pays attention to the people who collaps and die on the streets
He picks up Angel Konan and after that comes across Yahiko as well
(In order to survive, the three live together, stealing and such)
Yahiko's dream is world conquest¹
But he just died²
Because he cannot apologise to his dead parents, he'll survive with all his might and
when he stands at the top of the world, he'll create a world without war~
Nagato: "Wa~h, like a god"
The three and chibi walk in the rain

From the sky above comes a kunai with an exploding tag

The three and Chibi are blown away in the blast.

Konan: "Chibi is ><" Yahiko: "There's fighting in a place like this?" he goes to see who is doing the fighting There: "Saizou³ and Konoha shinobi?" (Jiraiya, Tsunade, Orochimaru) "If we stay here we'll get involved. Let's go somewhere safe~" Chibi dies in Nagato's arms Yahiko says something like "Dammit! I'll turn into a god and create a world without war~" Nagato: (Yahiko's dream... gradually became my dream as well...) The end (The spine has Naruto - Forgot the title/cover...) If i understand it correctly, Nagato's pain comes from the death of his parents and his dog ><(actually i get bored with flash back,i think its gonna be long winding flashback afterall for some chapters ahead...:-(

anime eps.106:red camelia,its no use actually to make these fillers too long,since in the end the one who capture the three tails would akatsuki gangs anyway.so what is with the 3 konoha groups,losers from guren gangs,the love between yukimaru and guren...what a waste...totally boring...worst than sora fillers.

zettai kareshi special


synopsis :This special, titled "Zettai Kareshi - Kanzen Muketsu no Koibito Robot" is set after the end of the series. Asamoto Soshi (Mizushima Hiro) and Izawa Riko (Aibu Saki) were called back to Japan after they had completed their studies in Paris. They fall in love in between and planning to marry soon. In additions, Kamiya Ayumi (Ryoko Kuninaka), a brilliant scientist and her assistant Nanase (Asahi Uchida), they develop many new models robot but Ayumi most interested in "Tenjo Night' (Mokomichi Hayami) which have the human feeling.
One day, Riko is assaulted by delinquents. a passer-by comes to the aid of Riko, and the savior is none other than robot "Tenjo Night" --- Robot boyfriend is coming back!
comment after watching: actually i was really happy when i heard that there is a special episode for this series,since i really love the manga and not quite satisfied with the ending for the drama series.atleast there is a chance to fix the flaws from before,but then again eventually i got dissapointed.not as happy as after i watched galileo special and movie.its merely a dissapointment, although i thanked sars fansubs(again) for freely providing us the fans to download and watch this with fully eng subs.maybe not all people share the same opinion as me,but its just not as i expected.coz in the manga,riiko is always have the love for tenjo night,although she cared for soshi.what is the point of bringing night back to life after 3years if only to be hurted again by love.i prefer no special episode just leave the end as before.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

faster than a kiss(kissu yora mo hayaku)



just today i read new manga,the title is 'faster than a kiss'. the story is quite adorable,i love it,but unfortunately its not finish yet.so i have to wait,until i dont know when,well i will put this in one of my schedule to check for the update along with naruto,bleach and tsubasa reservoir chronicle.

the story revolves around a 16 years old high school girl with her 4 years old younger brother who just lost their parent in one accident.after that they have to move from one relatives to another. and they really sad abt it until they decide to runaway and try to live by themselves.finally her 24 years old english teacher,a guy, offer her to be taken care of,she agreed after they secretly bind themselves in one marriage,i dont know whether is out of symphaty or love.the next  story is abt their fight,their growing love and sense of filling the empty feeling of a warmth in the  family.

i dont know why but i love this kind of story,the growing love after marriage.maybe because it resembles my life's experience.to have my wedding without actual or madly in love but more to symphaty and respect everyone's wish in the beginning.but in the end we find ourselves valued each other  a lot and becoming bestfriends and lover at the same time.we can just be who we are and nothing to hide.it was difficult in the early moments but its getting smooth slowly as the time goes by.just like full house,goong(princess hours),sassy girl chun hyang,and many more.just love them all!until i take some ideas from full house for my house's design. witing tresno jalaran soko kulino(love can grow within times),is true sometimes. 

the small feeling piled in the heart.....................

the beauty of positive thinking


as i write before that this early morning the sun is shining so bright and i love it,so i intend to do what i've planned since yesterday,that i would clean the garden in front of my house and watering all the plants and flowers,also clean and tidy up the things inside the house.i did it,and it took me about two hours to finish it all and now i take a rest for a while after a quite tiring home activity.

when i was cutting the grass,clean all the falling leaves,organize the plants/flowers,and finally watering it all,the sun suddenly seemed tobe covered by the cloud.its more likely the rain would soon be fall anytime just now but it didn't happen.actually i was ready that time to abandon it if the water were trully pouring from the cloudy grey sky.but in the end i was thinking in different way,that maybe God just gave me one more blessing not to be tortured in the heat of the sun while do the gardening thing. i thought what more do i expect rather than saying Alhamdulillah.magically,after i finished with the garden the sun slowly reappeared although not really bright as before.so i definitely believe in my thought abt this.

now,i do my next duty for the rest of the day,finding some ideas to make some designs for prints as my boss have asked me before.  

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

cinta bumi dan langit (part 16)

Tak seperti biasanya,aku terbangun dlm keadaan hari msh begitu gelap,sejenak kukumpulkan semua kesadaranku sebelum akhirnya aku benar2 terbangun,duduk lalu mulai berdiri dan melangkah dgn sedikit gontai kearah dapur,kuambil segelas air putih lalu kuteguk perlahan,aliran air dingin yg membasahi kerongkonganku serasa menyegarkan dan akupun kembali kekamar.

Setelah berada dikamar yg masih dlm keadaan redup,kuulurkan tangan untuk meraih jam tangan yg biasanya ada dimeja kecil sebelah tmpat tidurku,tp malah hp yg kuraih.kulihat ternyata ada pesan baru.kubuka pesan itu utk tahu dr siapa,ternyata dari satrio dan sepupuku alias manajerku.

Kubuka pesan singkat dari satrio dulu karena aku tak dpt menahan rasa ingin tahu yg ada dibenakku dr sejak kemarin malam sampai akhirnya tanpa sadar ku tertidur.

' aku sangat2 senang sekali membaca sms dari kamu,ok, besok aku akan dtg kesana.saya tunggu kamu sampai dtg'

Setelah membaca balasan drnya aku bersorak2 kegirangan,dan aku ingin memberitahu kabar gembira ini pada seseorg,oh ya manajerku/sepupuku saja..tp saat itu aku teringat pesan dr dia yg blm kubuka.sekalian saja pikirku,aku bisa membalas smsnya setelah nanti kubaca.

'linda,besok ada acara pemotretan,lalu ada undangan dihotel marionne makan malam ultah bos rumah produksi ama kolega2 lain jg rekan2 artis.kamu hrs dtg,buat job kamu selanjutnya.'

Kegembiraaanku mendadak lenyap dan berganti dgn kekesalan yg membuncah dr dada ini,sesak dan kesal bercampur aduk.bagaimana bisa ini terjadi?apa yg mesti kulakukan?disatu sisi aku sangat ingin bertemu dgn satrio,disisi lain aku tak mungkin tidak dtg karena aku tahu persis itu hal yg sangat penting bagi karirku walau akupun sadar acara tersebut biasanya akan selesai setidaknya hampir tengah malam.

Aku tak mungkin berada didua tempat sekaligus,ah sungguh pilihan yg sulit.andai aku punya satu kloning atau setidaknya kembaran yg sama agar aku bisa memenuhi dua janji yg ada malam nanti.aku harus memikirkan cara agar aku tetap bisa menghadiri undangan dihotel itu tp tetap bertemu dgn satrio.(bersambung)

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Monday, April 20, 2009

love the magic hour



 

i always love the view of the magic hour,the time when the sun is ready to set and replace by the moon for the rest of the day.everywhere everytime i see it,it had never stopped to amaze me, how beautiful the picture that God has created.flawless sky without piles,its more like floating above us.the sun and the moon seems to be hanging and decorate it as if one huge painting on canvas with some mixture coloring from yellow,orange,red,blue and black.i've watch it in my friend's rooftop,in tanah lot beach bali,in the highway street,in the sky when i was inside an aeroplane, including in my own home.its just always make me feel comfortable,peace and happy. love to watch more of this in other different places....  (insert photos taken from my home, the highway and my friend's rooftop) 

Saturday, April 18, 2009

cinta bumi dan langit (part 15)

Kuputuskan saja utk membuat janji bertemu dgnnya disebuah tempat.ada semacam dorongan kuat yg timbul dr dlm hatiku.
tetapi aku harus menunggu terlebih dahulu apa yg akan dia katakan sbg tanggapan atas jwbnku padanya kemarin.
zzzzzzttt..hpku tiba2 bergetar kembali saat pikiranku masih menerawang memikirkan ide terbaik utk mengatur pertemuanku dgnnya.

Ternyata sms dari satrio,degup jantung ini tiba2 bertambah kencang,kuhela nafas panjang lalu kubuka isi sms itu..

' kamu tahu tidak,aku berharap bahwa apa yg kauharap lebih dariku itu sama..karena terus terang aku berharap utk tau lebih dalam tentangmu,siapa dirimu sebenarnya,bahkan setelah lama kusadari kamu tak pernah memberitahuku siapa namamu.apa bs kita ketemu?'

Saat kubaca kata demi kata itu,aku menggelengkan kepala hampir tak percaya,ku cubit pipiku sendiri..ternyata sakit,aku tak bermimpi.aku hampir2 tak percaya bagaimana mungkin apa yg kita berdua pikirkan sama adanya?sungguh diluar dugaan! bagaimana sekarang?apa yg harus aku jawab?....berpikir berpikirlah linda....berpikir..aku berusaha memeras setetes ide dari benakku utk memutuskan apa yg hrs kulakukan...

Seolah mendapati sinar matahari yg terik menyengat seperti itulah aku baru saja mendapatkan cara utk menyelesaikan semua ini.
ku mulai membuka lembar balasan utknya dihpku dan mulai mengetikkan kata per kata ..

' aku sbnrnya hampir2 ga percaya,gimana kita berdua bs punya pikiran yg sama.aku linda,aku jg ingin bertemu kamu.bisakah kamu datang besok ke kafe rose yg ada dijl.sudirman?aku tunggu kamu disana jam 8 mlm'.

Sedikit nekat tapi ada kepuasan bathin yg kurasakan juga kelegaan didada ini.aku tak peduli,aku hanya ingin bertemu dgnnya walaupun aku mungkin gegabah karena tidak memberitahu manajer alias sepupuku.

Kurebahkan badan ini dikasur yg empuk seraya kupandangi langit2 kamar ini setidaknya hanya ada satu yg kutunggu sampai besok pagi,walaupn aku berharap lebih cepat,satrio tolong balas smsku...aku belum bisa tidur sebelum tahu jawaban darimu.....(bersambung)

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galileo the movie:yougisha x no kenshin


this is the movie taken from the same title drama.i love the drama,i love the physic's approach in finding the solution for each murder case.i cant wait to watch this,until today,sars-fansub,im grateful to them has bring this for us as their fan for freely watching after we download it from their site,and completely well done english subbed.the movie is more thrilling,between the murder case,the friendship,the geniuses,the love.all twisted in the same time along the movie. fantastic,and im really satisfied with this.for 6 month's waiting,i find it worth alot.i really recommend this especially for the fan.in Japan also Galileo was the 3rd box office with the amount reached 5billion yen in the 2008.looooveee it!!! sugoi,although the end between prof.yukawa and detective kaoru,not really in a romantic way.but the eyes just told me everything without explanation,there goes without saying,its love. ^_^
for synopsis of the drama,just see in the 'synopsis reference-drama'

the saga of amty and hima (chapter2)


once upon a time,in a country named donesy lived two big families.one of them called amty family and the other is hima family.these two families didn't get along well, or lets say deep inside their heart they have grudge to each other.
there were too many scars in the history between the two,that would never made them have a good relationship for so long,maybe end up forever.

from missunderstanding,selfishness,arrogancy,revenge,or simply to call it all as water and oil, will always be separated somehow.for each member of the family accidentically connected with their rival family was just purely destined by God,but thats the way it was,the connection ended in a hurtful way for one side,whether amty or hima.

 chapter2 :she's no better than both of us

Rewaty kanda and Massa suna lived happily after their wedding,and one year later they're blessed by God with the birth of one cute baby girl. they named her Vya amty.amty taken from the nick names of her parent.
they stayed there for like several years until they have another baby girl. the second daughter named Leda amty.soon after the second daughter reached her anniversary of the 3rd year,they moved back to rewaty's hometown and lived with her parent for a moment.
they then bought their own house not so far from her parent.and in this new house they add more of the family member,more children. the 3rd,a son named Hira amty,the 4th,a daughter again named Asti amty and the last,the 5th,a daughter named Rina amty.
all of the five children raised in a very strick way by rewaty.all is taught to be a smart dilligent and honest children.the story then will be focusing on the first child,Vya Amty.
  a calm child,she must took care of her younger siblings.she arranged to share the tasks of cleaning the house and other things to help their mother with her other sisters and brother.her study went well,average.she has many friends and admirer too.
 after a few months passed by,the new trend were coming up, the neighborhood all went crazy with radio call,sort of the communication tools between cops or taxi.the technology were not so sophisticated and great as today's but was a huge trend among the society.over the conversation from one to another, vya met a guy who disguised himself as mardhika.they talked alot and became a good friend.mardhika found many similarities between them,until he finally fell for her.
  he made some moves to get closer to her and slowly showed her his feeling.but unfortunately even after sometimes,she didnt take him more than just a friend.

  in another place within their neighborhood,libby hima the niece of oswa hima,had a crush on him(mardhika). the first impression that turned to be love was when she saw him in the social gathering in their society.she fell for him deeply until she made his sister as her bestfriend,so she got all the support in making him her husband.she also knew that mardhika's attention was only for vya amty,so she tried harder to eliminate the chances for both vya and mardhika to be together into 0 percent.she sometimes teased him and being nice to him on purpose in front of vya.
  vya was irritated with the scenes she showed her,the way she said the words along with his sister to make her angry and lose the patience.but she managed to hold herself not to get influenced by their provokative moves.luckily thanks to libby,she finally realized that she also cared for mardhika deep inside her heart,and she started having this fear of losing him for sure if libby succedded with her efforts to make him hers.
  vya became more open with herself to him and nicer than before. mardhika somehow,from the beginning has always loved her,so he finally proposed her despite of his sister's objection.vya was willing to take the risks although she realized that it wont be easy to face his sister,since she was libby's bestfriend,her rival in love.
  libby hima was a brokenhearted woman after their wedding and it took quite a long time before she finally met someone who cared for her and gave her two beautiful little girls.the misfortune seemed just wont go away from her,after several years later,she had to fight a grave illness and soon after that she passed away leaving her love,her family in this cruel world.
  vya felt sorry for her and the destiny that had written among both of them.she just prayed may God gave her a better place there in heaven.(end of chapter2)

(next chapter :chapter 3:unwanted wedding,humiliation and a fairy tale happy ending)

(to see chapter 1 click 'pouring my mind')

Friday, April 17, 2009

naruto update :anime eps.105, manga ch.444



anime eps 105 :still showing abt the 4girls tried to seal the 3tails,but failed.and that yuukimaru finally drawn his true strength when guren was about to be harmed by the 3tails.a bit of akatsuki/tobi, a bit of oro chimaru,a bit of yamato and kakashi 's chat. well..too far to catch up with the manga chapter i suppose...

the manga the same as the spoiler...:-)

no manga update yet.but i have a confirmed spoiler of ch.444 from other sites.

it said that naruto finally reach nagato's place,nagato started attacking him with his rinnegan but naruto managed to repell it.naruto said he wanted to kill nagato but he ask first why nagato hates konoha badly.nagato remeber the past and start screaming with his rinnegan activated again,but naruto's eyes has changed into the mix between kyuubi and sage eyes at once.cool! cant wait to read the full version...;-)

boys before flower(korean drama 2009)


synopsis :Jan Di is an average girl whose family owns a dry cleaning store located near the luxurious and well known Shin Hwa College. Jan Di meets the four richest and most spoiled boys known as the F4. After saving a boy from jumping off the roof of Shinhwa High School, she is admitted into the school on a swimming scholarship. Jan Di tries to avoid confrontation with the F4 at all cost because she knows what happens to those that stand against them. However, when Jan Di's friend, Oh Min Ji, accidentally gets ice cream on the leader of the F4's shoes, she's forced to declare war on the leader of the F4, Goo Joon Pyo.
comments after watching until its finished:ok i see that the viewer's rating is excellent in korea. ok i see that the story is not far from the original manga,is kinda mix between meteor garden and hana yori dango dramas i've watched before.and that its made in korean taste and cultural background, but for me is really annoying somehow.why?because everything's not really in a maximum climax. Jun pyo's mother wasn't so cruel as MG and HYD,jan di's not really a very poor family,coz i see in her room,she has flat lcd screen computer,that quite expensive here,the clothes is ok for an average commoner.the lack of chemistry between the triangle love jun pyo-jan di- ji hoo.what makes me upset even more is that jandi character is not attractive in every angle,not cute and inspiring as the japan version,the beauty level is just annoying compare to all of her rivals.even her bestfriend looks younger,coz her face just looked too old for a highschooler.jun pyo's quiet resistance just bored me,ji hoo's thick make up made him pretty rather than looking cool. after all i still love the japanese version alot better! even after watching this one. the F4 gang is ok,the fashion is ok.the rest is so so.

coldhearted me...


i dont know what i really feel rightnow,coz all of the things is mix up in my mind.i dont know whether it is a confusion,guilt,angry,scared,depressed,or anything else that i could not mention here.all i know its like a huge burden in my shoulder and that i make everybody around me dissapointed.i know what i should've done but somehow inside me there is a frightened little girl whose terrified of what will happening if she took the step.she was just too scared to be left alone,ignored and have to watch unfriendly face.actually all she ever wanted was to be a good friend for the helpless old grandpa that she cared a lot,but somehow she finally didnt take the step coz she might be angered by the guardian of the grandpa.

im just tired with this sort of life,i dont know,today i feel very very depressed. sometimes i just lost the clue of what i should be doing,my mind just go blank within seconds.i just dont know what to do.if i told this to anyone ,i bet they'll blame me for what i did.

why the life seems tobe tiring for me lately...i just dont understand.as much as i try to comprehen it but i cant do it.or am i becoming a selfish brat who cares nothing but myself,and can't fulfill everyone's expectation of me.i want to do the right thing for once in my life,i want to know what i must do everytime new problem crosses the path that i take.pls God help me,make me strong just for this once again like You used to.i just want to runaway.......................

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

love the lesson a lot!


sometimes i think i might chose the wrong education but after i re-think about it again i don't think so.i suppose in life we must not regret anything,right?
rightnow i realize something,my love for learning language.i always get excited whenever i learn new language, for now i learn nihongo.i don't know whether its from my other hobby like reading mangas,watching anime and doramas,but the fact is the curiosity to learn and understand what they're talking about made me take this step(learn the language).especially if the language have some sort of special writing that might not be easy to be read by common people who know nothing about it.i once also love to learn hindi,korean,mandarin based on what i've been watching,but was not really taking special class like i do now,its more like i learned by myself and get to know the language as i can.
anyway.., i just want to shout out loud that i do love the lesson!although its getting tougher and tougher,but i love the challenge and want to try my hardest to conquer it.i cant wait for the next lesson a few days ahead.ganbare!

Monday, April 13, 2009

cinta bumi dan langit (part 14)

Entah kenapa seberapa lama telepon itu berdering tetap saja tidak membuatku beranjak dari kursi ini,rasa malas yg menyergapku begitu kuat,karena tak ada keinginan lain dipikiranku saat ini selain menunggu balasan sms dari satrio. yg sosoknya seolah2 berada dihadapanku saat ini.

Mata tajam itu dan raut muka tanpa senyum itu begitu serius, tapi benar2 membuatku ingin tahu lebih bnyk dan aku mulai membayangkan berbicara langsung dgnnya dan mungkin berjalan beriringan sambil bergandengan tangan.hhhuh apa yg terjadi dgnku?kenapa anganku sekarang seperti anak sekolah yg sedang mengalami masa puber pertama,dimana bilur bilur rindu itu mulai menjangkiti diriku.

Tiba2 hpku bergetar..zzzzz
kuambil dan sesegera mungkin kubuka pesan yg masuk itu.

' hi,kabarku baik,gimana dgn kamu?udah mulai ga terlalu sibuk atau masih?'

Saat aku akan membalas smsnya hpku kembali bergetar..

' aku kira kamu tak lg mau berteman dgnku,terus terang aku sangat kehilangan dan merasa sedikit kesepian.aku takut kamu kecewa pada saya dan gak mau berhubungan lg.maaf ya kalo memang sy ada salah.'

Kaget,terharu,girang..entah semua campur aduk dibenakku. semuanya seolah terasa mengejutkan.caranya menulis sms itu seolah seperti org yg tersesat dan rapuh.untuk sejenak ku termenung dan hanya memandangi layar hp ku dgn perasaan yg tertusuk.seutas senyum tersungging diujung bibirku dan genangan hangat air mata mulai mengalir perlahan disela2 mataku dan ada kelegaan yg kurasa didada ini lalu ku mulai memencet satu persatu huruf utk membalas smsnya.

' oh ga apa2 koq.kamu ga punya salah apa2 sama aku.aku aja yg terlalu sibuk,sibuk dgn pikiranku sendiri.kita masih berteman koq. malah aku berharap terlalu lebih'.

Kata2 yg aku tulis terhenti disitu.aku tak dapat terlalu jujur dgn perasaanku padanya.tidak sekarang.aku masih butuh waktu.walau sebenarnya keinginanku utk bertemu dgnnya sangat besar.(bersambung)

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i love the chemistry....





i have several dramas from different countries that shared the same thing in common, chemistry,and i love them.
chemistry is the bond between the main characters that showed us what love is.from the eyes,the way they see each other,the way they hold hands,they fight,they quarrels,they cry and laugh.
the acting is so convincing until we,the audiences, hope that the scenes would be also happening in reality and they become the lovely couple of lovers.they could bring the story so alive and real. although most of them not actually fall in love outside the screen. most of them made the gossip columns full of their news,the curiosity of what was actually happening in their (the actor/actress who play the role) minds and hearts.

1.full house(Korean drama)
its very inspiring for me,about the story and the characters.the way the quarrels and fight but deep inside they care for each other.the leading actor and actress awarded as best couple in screen that year.its a big huge success.the fans give the nickname for them rain/bi (Yong jae) and song hye kyo(han ji eun) as bikyo.

2.kayamath(Indian soap opera)
although i don't follow through each episode,but i understand the main general plot of the story.the thing i love the most is the chemistry between millind(shabbir ahluwalia) and prachi(panchi bora).the fans called them michi.

3.cuidado con el angel(mexican drama)
it airs now in my country,i like the couple,and i read in the news that they also bring up the curiosity of the audiences abt their relationship in real coz of the chemistry.juan miguel(william levy) and marichuy(maite perroni) were succesfull doing their role here.

4.hana yori dango(japanese dorama)
the best of f4 story of all f4 version ever made.no one beat the acting and the chemistry between domyouji tsukasa(matsu jun) and makino tsukushi(mao inoue).the rumor said they were already a couple by sharing the same bracelet and boots.but they never confirmed that news.i also love gto(great teacher onizuka) the most successfull couple in screen became the couple in life.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

maia-pengkhianat cinta vs jewel intuition

emang ga seluruhnya isi lagu itu sama tp teteup aja ada bagian nada yg niru dr lagunya jewel yg udh lama bgt keluar.plis deh...sebenernya yg kasus dmasiv niru band bule jg ada,trus yg nada dilagu hijau daun -cobalah yg mirip dgn nada di lagu the cranberries tp sy lupa judulnya.tp susah ya jaman skrg utk bnr2 pure ide orisinil sendiri..phuiih capek deh



Friday, April 10, 2009

naruto update ch 443 :the meeting and the anime



naruto manga ch 443:well, its like i thought,finally naruto defeated the last pain's puppet,yahiko with rasengan. and he want to solve by talking with the real pain.i guess it will like what i said before in the update,he will make him understand the way he did it to gaara.they will find the answer somehow.its kind a relieving though,i hope next chapter will be better.for anime i'll add later.

naruto anime eps 103-104 : abt the fight between guren and kakashi's group,the appearance of akatsuki in the lake and the rest is boring.the fillers episode are such a waste.just got to see the new songs in the opening and ending.

bleach manga ch.353 : the more unreasonable manga,its like watching tom and jerry cartoon.no matter how many times the body's shattered, they always come back to life. and without no reason ichigo got he new power and lose it easily...without trying hard to learn it first as naruto done it for sometimes for each of his jutsu like rasengan and rasen shuriken or sage mode.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

star's lover(korean drama series)


Lee Ma Ri is a famous actress that is actively pursued by four men. The four men come from different backgrounds and have different aspirations. One is a literature graduate student who dreams of becoming a writer (Yoo Ji Tae), another is a famous photographer (Choi Phillip), the third is the heir to a major chaebol family (Ki Tae Young), and the last man chasing after Ma Ri is a young executive who works at a media corporation (Lee Ki Woo).
comments by me: its stressfull, tiring, full of tears drama but for me is too much.the romance is ok,the chemistry is enough,but sometimes i cant differenciate whether she's acting or acting in the scene.just to easy the tears shown in every character.too much though.i thought i could learn a lesson as i took from celeb to binbo taro i put in older posting,but apparently i dont.nothing i can get but helplessly watching how difficult a person to be true to him/herself, admit and being honest with the one s/he loves. not really recommended, exxagerating and dramatize the story too far.no wonder the rating was not so good.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

my cute nephews


 
i try to draw the second son of my second older sister,but apparently not quite similar.
maybe I'm not good enough hehe..
but this nephew of mine is left-handed as me,cheerful,naughty but smart kid named ifan.his big brother named raka is very talented in drawing with right hand. love them both ... :-) maybe when i have my own children someday, at least s/he inherit my skills too as them to their mom.

the model named cat..




i love to take the picture of the cat,although personally i dont keep them as pets...

smelly cat....smelly cat...(by phoebe-friends)


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

excitement and dissapointment at the same time


right now at this moment my feeling is mixed.actually a few hours ago i went home happily after meeting and studying with my new friends in the language course place.i feel really exciting although the lesson is getting tougher and tougher but i dont mind to learn it at all since it is one of my fave lesson.for me its like conquering one challenge, can i do it or not, as simple as that.

but unfortunately this wasn't last very long,right after i check my emails in the internet, somehow i feel angry and dissapointed with some of my old friends.i just dont know it felt like  im no longer one of their important friend,as the one i thought would be the one who is the most considerate about me didn't even bother to ask or say hi.

well maybe i judge too fast or maybe my feeling now is correct.maybe i'd rather keep a distance far enough not to be dissapointed like this again in the future.i have to say that the most precious trustworthy bestfriend i've ever had, one and still my lovely diary and no other.i dont have to listen to complaints,i dont have to bother with the grudges,the hatred,the dissapointment, and whatever that is which makes me sick to my stomach.but on the contrary,im the one who'll be listened without doubts and complaints.

i close the world of mine to other,i keep the real me inside my castle of heart as no one would ever guess whats inside.only me and God who know. i promise my self not to ever believe in someone too much until it damned hurt my own feeling again.i would trust no one but myself. the one who share the most of me is God,me and nevertheless my dear hubby.

i treasure the friendships i have most of the time but it felt like being used always.i cant take it anymore,i'd rather meet new strangers,new people and i dont have to be so open with them, somehow its relieving and more fun these days.its a pity my excitement ruined by seeing all of this unnecessary views. 

among the strangers...

cinta bumi dan langit (part13)

Entah berapa kali supupuku menepuk bahuku,aku baru tersadar saat dia mulai berteriak dan mengibas2kan tangannya didepan wajahku.aku tergagap dan malu sendiri saat dia mengomeliku dgn caraku memandangnya.dia lalu bilang kenapa aku sepertinya terkesiap melihat org itu,aku tak tahu harus berkata apa.

Dia hanya tersenyum melihat ekspresi bodohku saat menyadari bahwa pandanganku tertuju pada org itu lg.dia mengangguk dan kembali menyunggingkan senyum lebih lebar bahwa instingku benar dgn melihat org td,karena dia adalah satrio yg dimaksud.

Ada sesuatu yg indah tumbuh direlung hatiku setelah mengetahui kebenarannya, tak tahu apa yg bisa kugambarkan dari perasaan dan pikiranku saat ini.yg jelas aku mulai merasa hari ini lebih indah dari biasanya,dan walaupun sedikit mendung diluar sana tp bagiku suasananya begitu cerah,seolah sinar mentari tetap setia memancarkan sinarnya.
aku tak dapat berhenti tersenyum dan tersipu malu saat kukenang wajahnya.seperti ada perekat super kuat yg membuat bayangan itu enggan sirna dari benakku.aku akan kembali mengiriminya sms,dgn sepenuh jiwaku.tgnku tak dapat berkompromi dgnku, karena sepertinya telah terpengaruh oleh perasaanku yg sedang tegang dan gugup.ku hela nafas panjang dan kumulai mengetikkan satu persatu kata yg kuingin susun secara apik dan bersahabat.

'dear satrio, maaf aku br bls sms mu,krn kmaren aku sibuk.gmn kbrmu?'

Ce ilah belagak sibuk padahal aku bete berpikir kalo kamu adalah org tua itu,dalam hati aku menertawakan kekesalanku kemaren2.aku sedikit cemas sebenarnya,takut dan khawatir bahwa ini sudah terlambat,karena terlalu lama aku mengambil keputusan utk menghubunginya lg.lama waktu berlalu sejak ku kirim sms itu padanya,aku mulai gelisah tak menentu.apa yg akan terjadi setelah ini..karena terus terang aku tidak dapat menerima bila semua berakhir hanya sampai disini.

Tiba2 ku tersadar dr lamunan saat telp rumahku berdering tanpa henti.(bersambung)

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Monday, April 6, 2009

describing what inside me




many things has happened to me for the last few months lately,and i wonder why the time goes by so fast,that i dont even realize how different i am from the old me.although not all had dissapeared, some of it still stay with me and i could change it,as if its my true nature.one of the thing is my silence whenever meeting new people or stranger.i won't easily communicate if im not forced to do so.

i went through all these years with cries and laughters,and im grateful to God for making me hold still and strong, stronger to overcome all the obstacles in my journey of life.i met some nice people, new bestfriends,but new enemy as well.im sure nobody had any intention to make enemy in their life unless they are a psycho,but we can never satisfy all people around us,atleast thats what im thinking.but after all these years, actually i also dont want to be reminded by the bitter past and ugly experiences that would re-open my wounded heart. apparently i cant avoid it anyway, some of them returned without warning,and made myself to deal with.i just wish that im strong as i used to be and patiently find the best solution for all.

i just wish i would still live another great days ahead until the end of the journey...   

Saturday, April 4, 2009

the saga of amty and hima





once upon a time,in a country named donesy lived two big families.one of them called amty family and the other is hima family.these two families didn't get along well, or lets say deep inside their heart they have grudge to each other. there were too many scars in the history between the two,that would never made them have a good relationship for so long,maybe end up forever. from missunderstanding,selfishness,arrogancy,revenge,or simply to call it all as water and oil, will always be separated somehow.for each member of the family accidentically connected with their rival family was just purely destined by God,but thats the way it was,the connection ended in a hurtful way for one side,whether amty or hima.

chapter1:the harsh brokenhearted cutting on the palm trees.....

there was this young girl named rewaty kanda.she's the 2nd child of 11 children in the big family of kanda family.the free spirited,nice and high dedication girl.she really love to experience new things,has many friends and hardworking-type of person.one day she met this guy named oswa hima from the hima family.just like a love at the first sight, they fell in love with each other.for some times they get along just fine and by the time goes by,the relationship has been develop into a serious relationship after 2years.
oneday, oswa hima get sick.
as a good girl friend,rewaty wanted to visit him and cheered him,so he could get better soon.she went there with a happy feeling and pure intention only to show how much she cared for him.but unfortunately something unexpected happened.his mother said things that hurted her deep,too deep until she felt humiliated and wanted to go away from the city not long after that.his mom said ' what kind of girl who would come and offered herself rather than a shallow minded and have no pride type of girl.its a disgrace for woman to pursue a man like that.' rewaty couldn't forget what she heard that day and it had never been erased in her mind each word of hers.as soon as oswa got better,in a rush he came to her house to apologize and asked her to be with him,coz he was true to her,love her and wanted to get engage.she said nothing to promise him, she just said that she needed sometimes to think things over between them.
and so she went to other city to learn new experience,met new people, breathed new air.she finally worked in one famous hotel as one of the staff there,and met massa suna.massa was a young man worked as the kitchen staff there.they became friends as the time went by,their friendship was closer than ever.they shared things,they discussed everything.
one day,after several months paseed by, rewaty said to massa that she wanted to visit her parent back in her hometown.she offered him whether he want to come along with her. he said he would,so they went to her parent together.
after they arrived,her parent asked about their relationship and asked him if he had any future planning with her.in the end of the day,they asked massa if he 'd willing to marry rewaty right at this moment.he surprised but did not refuse the offer.and so they got married without planning, ceremony or other thing, that was usual and simple marriage.yes they built the relationship as bestfriend not lover but they became bestfriends for life.after 2days they return to the other city where both of them worked. oswa heard the news of rewaty visiting her parent a bit too late, but he wanted to see her and took her hand in marriage.he prepared one ring for engagement,wrapped it beautifully and went to her house in a hurry to let all his feeling out to her and proposed her.by the time he arrived in her house,her father was the one who faced him and asked of his intention.he explained all to him that he wanted to marry her.rewaty's father surprised by his words,but wisely and gently finally told him that rewaty was already married to someone else,someone from the same office as her.
oswa stunned and shocked,he felt the sky fell over him,and he refused to believe this.he went home like a confuse walking drunk man.it seemed like he ran out of energy and the darkness surrounded him.as he reached his house,he threw the rings away,and picked one blade,long blade.he started cutting all the palm trees that grew in the front yard of his house. he screamed and cried at the same time.his heart broke and hurted so deep... why this is happening to me..!!
in the far place,rewaty just wished him to find someone better than her, coz deep inside she would've not done this if his mom's words didn't hurt her this deep.(end of chptr1.next: chapter 2:she's no better than both of us)

Friday, April 3, 2009

naruto manga update :ch.442 spoiler and confirmed version



i know,but maybe this one is true,the spoiler is convincing,but still i wait for the confirmed chapter today.it said that sakura heals hinata while thinking abt what she(hinata) did for naruto's sake mmmhm,naruto fight pain most of the time although he told to naruto to give up.and there's winning part...im still confuse...waiting waiting.....

as for the anime,dunno yet since no clue,for this week filler episode...
but one thing for sure..sakura is the main lead girl not hinata... so i vote for sakura to be with naruto rather than with sasuke,as for hinata,she just need to accept the fact..
naruto ch.442 confirmed: the same as the spoiler...how boring, anyway,if pain will be beaten by a simple rasengan,why naruto has to come this far?....too much to take..

bleach ch.352:finally rukia is in the scenes again.. ichigo lost himself until he stabbed ishida.but finally blow up ulquiorra to the very last piece.too much to read..the absurd part..but well both mangas are absurd....

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

cinta bumi dan langit (part12)

Manajer alias sepupuku muncul hari itu membawa berita yg menjungkirbalikkan tekadku semula.dia berkata bahwa dia mungkin telah membuat satu kesalahan saat mencari info tentang satrio sinomer iseng. dia mengkhawatirkanku karena melihat reaksiku yg sepertinya bnr2 kecewa dan katanya itu mempengaruhiku terlalu parah.tak ingin berlarut2 dia bilang bahwa dia melakukan investigasi ulang demi aku.aku terharu dan meminta maaf bila ku memang membuatnya susah jg.ia hanya tersenyum tulus dan berkata tidak apa2 karena kita bersaudara dan sahabat yg paling dekat.dia hanya tak mau lagi melihatku terpuruk seperti dulu.

Tanpa banyak basa basi lg dia memberitahuku bahwa mungkin yg dilihat oleh kita berdua waktu itu tentang sosok sebenarnya dari satrio adalah org yg salah.karena setelah mendapat info lanjutan dr og suruhannya, dia senyum sambil memelukku dan membisikkan kata2 yg mengejutkan,bahwa kemungkinan besar satrio yg kita maksud adalah org lain yg tak sempat kita lihat saat itu sebab ketergesaan dan kekecewaan yg mendahului logikaku.

Anganku seolah terguyur oleh air dingin menyegarkan setelah penuh dahaga kekecewaan dan kemurungan.kitapun berdua kembali bergegas utk melakukan hal yg kita pernah lakukan sebelumnya,mengintai utk mengetahui sosok satrio yg sebenarnya.

Seperti hari itu,saat kita menunggu dan berharap,saat inipun kita sedang diam dan mengamati diseberang jalan perusahaan tmptnya bekerja.kali ini tak secepat biasanya,org yg berhamburan tidak sebanyak waktu itu, satu persatu dari mereka,keluar dgn jeda waktu tidak bersamaan.sampai akhirnya, sosok seorg pria dgn umur sekitaran awal tigapuluhan, berambut ikal pendek,perawakan tinggi kurus.wajah yg serius dan lebih cenderung diam,tidak menunjukkan kesan ramah.dgn kemeja sedikit lusuh,dia berjalan menuju vespa keluaran tahun 70an yg sepertinya tidak terkesan layak utk ditumpangi. utk sesaat tanpa sadar aku menahan nafas saat melihatnya,apakah dia?satrio itu...
(bersambung)

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