Tuesday, August 18, 2009

any days now


waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring waiting is boring......................ENOUGH.

exactly how long i will be in this state of boredom and im losing my patience since im not good with waiting for something unnecessary gray and blurry.why people tend to make me deal with all this shitty feeling?i really have to do something unless i'll go crazy any minute now.if only there is a slight of enlighten clue for whatever that is im facing now,i would search for it,but i cant since all i can do now is waiting and damn waiting.Please God give me more and more patience since i need it a lot.i dont know why but i feel like closing down everything from the outside world and lock myself in the dark room just alone and no one would now but me and God.i just couldn't wait for the days to come where i can feel relax and comfortable again.somehow the anxiety has taken over the positive side of me who used to encourage and gave me power.

i wish all of this mess would end up sooner and i can feel the fresh air to breath again.

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