Sunday, August 18, 2013

Getting close to the final goal.

Well, it has been quite a while since the last time I wrote something in this blog. Frankly speaking, I don't know what to write and barely have time to do it anyway. However, since today is my last day of long holiday, I will try to at least share something by writing a post.

In the next few months,(hopefully within 3months or less) I would be able to achieve the long lost dream and make my parents proud with it. I hope everything will go on smoothly without any obstacles that matters. I have been through a lot during this half year of 2013. It wouldn't be appropriate for me to describe what had happened but for sure it was not something easy to deal with.

Right now, to be honest, I'm quite anxious with things that I will face in front of me. Will I be able to do it? I pray to God for it so much that I will. I'm on a verge of facing my biggest fear in socializing myself to certain situation and community. I have to find the strength to added up my confidence, backing up my motivation and sole purpose. 

I'm thinking to finish the whole thing as soon as I can if it's possible. I want to continue working on something I love rather than putting myself in an awkward situation with the burden of helplessness and weakness. If only  things were as easily said as what I can write here, I would be very pleased. It's unimaginable for me sometimes to face certain people who did nothing but taking some advantages from my disability to fight back due to the circumstances and situation. On the other hand, dealing with them is a must to finish where I want it to.

I just hope to God it will be over soon and I can continue my life as I want to and do things as I planned on my mind for the sake of the future.Ameen